‘Happiness is a form of courage.’
Happiness. According to the dictionary that is included in my computer, it is ‘the state of being happy’. I’m not saying this definition is wrong, but to me, there’s more to it. The difference between happy and happiness is not just that one is an adjective and the other a noun, the word happiness implies so much more than just being happy. To me, happiness is a state of mind, whereas happy is a mood. A mood is affected by stuff that is going on around us, and can change from one moment to the next. A state of mind is more stable. I’m not saying it’s the same all the time, but a change in your state of mind is not as sudden as a mood change. I’m not sure if that’s a clear for everyone, but hey, at least I gave it a shot. If you don’t understand, don’t hesitate to comment!
There are many quotes on happiness, but there reason I chose this one is because it immediately spoke to me. Finding happiness in oneself is not easy, and keeping it safe even more so. There are always things troubling us, sometimes it’s the small things, such as exams or a fight, and sometimes it’s something big, a relationship or our purpose in life. The trick of true happiness is being able to let these kind of things go. Let loose just a little bit. I’m not saying you should spin out of control, but when you feel like your cramping up and stressing about something, just have the courage to let go.
This may sound strange, but it was only when I left my boyfriend and practically my whole world, that I found true happiness. Sure, I had never been happier than when I was with my boyfriend, but it was a kind of happy that he provided. I admit that the first weeks in Paraguay I crumbled, big time, but I grew strong, and when I came back I had found my own happiness. And leaving for Paraguay was the most courageous thing I did. These past few months I truly felt the happiness run through my vains. I’m going on Erasmus to Ireland, I might be going to Paraguay, unless I get an internship at Cosmopolitan in New York City (!!!!!!) and the greatest thing of all, is that it is all in my own hands (except for the internship).
And this happiness has so much consequences. My first exam is next Monday, and I’ve been so focused most of the time and studying has been going really well, and I started swimming again (I’m up to a 100 laps per day, which is 1 km or 0.6 miles) and well, everything has just been great! And I owe it all to myself, which is the greatest thing of all!
A healthy mind in a healthy body, that’s for sure!